This weekend has been a hectic yet pleasing couple of days. On Thursday the 19th my oldest son went to his junior prom and on Friday the 20th my daughter went to her senior prom. As I watch them grow so nicely its weird. I mean of course I know my children have to grow and will soon become adults, but as a parent it seems like the time just went way too fast. It's soo bittersweet watching them turn into adults. Now they don't need me for much and that make me kind of sad.
I absolutely love being a mom. If I could, I would have at least 2 more children. The feeling of this little human needing me warms my heart. Now as Leah approaches 3 years old it makes me nervous. I mean now she's feeding herself, putting on her own shoes, telling me what food she wants to eat, she even knows to tell me she's sleepy. She's growing up right before my eyes and I'm soo scared. My teenagers are now going on dates and finding jobs, all while not really wanting to hang out with mom and dad soo much,,,Somebody heeeellllppppp!!!!! The world can be soo cruel and since I can't be there wherever they go and defend them in the moment of every person who may offend them, I'll be the first to admit it, I'm scared. I think all parents have this anxiety. I hope all parents have this anxiety, ha ha ha.
Am I the only one who finds myself saying some of the things I heard my parents say? Its soo funny because right after I say it I laugh. It's kind of a shock when I have to say out loud I have a 18 year old daughter. I always prayed to get here but now that I'm here it's like where has the time went, and why didn't anyone tell me it would pass by so fast. Oh wait my parents did tell me but since I was just a child, time wasn't a concern. Now as I tell my children the same thing it feels like history repeating itself and time doesn't concern them either. I guess the old saying "With age comes wisdom" is really accurate. But unfortunately it doesn't makes since until we're up in age, ughhhh.
There are several books published that give parenting tips and advice. But lets be real, there really is no book that can prepare you for the emotions of being a parent. And there definitely is nothing that could've prepared me for this constant anxiety and worry. There also is no such thing as perfect parents. It's the imperfections that makes us such great parents. Parenting is a "learn while you go" job. And even though my work started at the age of 18 in 1998 (which seems like forever ago), I still don't know it all and I'm okay with that. I'm also okay with knowing that there is no retirement from parenting. Remember my loves we in this thing called parenting, "From the Cradle to the Grave."
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