To Whom It May Concern

     My name is Ebony and I am creating this blog for moms/dads who share the same heartbreak as I do. My son name is James he was born June 3,2005 and he passed away on August 17,2011 at the tender age of 6. Now, I am a mom of 4, 3 on earth 1 in heaven.
   
      I want to create a outlet for parents to have access to without leaving their home, or even getting out of their pajamas as well as writing therapy for myself. To lose a child is one of the hardest things to go through, I think. As I went through this process I was often told "you looking good for what you've been through" or "I dont know how you do it girl" oh and lets not forget the favorite, "you holding up well." If these were supposed to be words of encouragement, I'm here to tell you, it wasnt. I get it no one knows what to say in these kind of situations. Nothing will make that parent feel better but having their child back. I literally had no one to talk to that would understand anyway. I did the therapy every week, where I had to get out of bed, get dressed, pay my 15.00 co pay for grief counseling, just to drive back home in tears from my session. Now therapy is definitely a great outlet and should be tried first and foremost, my goal is just to create another.

     With this blog my goal is to connect with other parents who feel like no one understands their pain, I do. I will share the personal way I handled grief and hopefully interact with others who may share their stories. I've learned that writing has helped me outside of talking about it. Lets face it, it hurts saying some words out loud (ie: Death, Dead, Died) in association with a name so near and dear to you. So writing in a journal was and is my outlet, and now I want to share my journal with you.

     There is absolutely life after death and your child lives every single day through you. As long as I have breath in my body my son will live and as long as I can speak his name he will live. I'm hoping my journey and story will be a living testimony for someone else. When you feel like your at the bottom remember there is no where left to go but up. Love and Blessings to you all.